Miscellaneous bored scribbles

originally created June 29, 2023 ✦ republished February 8, 2025

(Originally posted on Instagram. This retroactive post is copied from the Instagram post.)

Skribblez so I don't go insane sitting inside because of stupid fricking wildfires and mugginess and other junk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is something wrong with me????? Am I just not drawing enough??????? Lately, it's been feelings like I've been having too many thoughts about myself. My sleep's been low-quality, my head's been aching, thoughts rushing, there's a feeling welling up like I just really have to run somewhere, it's been difficult to go outside because it's stupid fricking boiling, it's been feeling like I'm either spending the entire day doing a single thing or having difficulty setting my mind on a single thing..... Basically, I've been doing garbage for weeks and it sucks large ass 🗑️🗑️🗑️

I just started drawing this out of nowhere, without planning "okay, I want to draw something today!!!" Usually in the past, I remember that often I got out of funks by relying on drawing, and drawing is one of the things I've been doing the least despite having stored bajillions of pent-up ideas for things I want to draw, animate, etc. that have popped into my mind over the course of the school year. (Fuck 11th grade, it will fuck around with you no matter how hard you try 🖕🏼🖕🏼🖕🏼) So it makes sense why I felt a little bit better after drawing this.

I tried a few things. I've had ideas for poses in my mind, and one of them that just so happened to be there was one of some guy just wistfully leaning on a railing, probably waiting for his lover to send him pigeon mail or smthn 💌🐦✨ Balancing the hair was a challenge that involved a lot of redrawing, but it worked out!

The latter two (on the left) are the ones I found the most interesting. I attempted a bottom-up perspective the other day, so I figured I'd try a top-down perspective, and I think the important thing is to think "what details get hidden?" Maybe looking at real-life pictures of this effect would be helpful, as it usually is.

And at the bottom is an old goodie! The story concept behind this guy and the cat lady & others have been on my mind lately, because I want to actually stick with something long-term like this for the first time. I just don't want it to be a pipe dream that I'm dwelling on or shoving into the back corner of my mind because I've never dedicated myself to something like that before for more than a few weeks, so why would it be any different. I don't wanna abandon these ideas again!!!!!!!!!

I might not be okay.........