"is this what happens when you sleep too much ?"

originally created March 5, 2023 ✦ republished February 8, 2025

(Originally posted on Instagram. This retroactive post is adapted from the Instagram post.)

My head feels weird. Although, this wouldn't be the first time I've said that. Ig it's just something that happens. I only wonder if the fact that I practically slept for 2 straight days has something to do with it??

I've felt tired all day today. Sometimes it feels like if I just sit and do nothing, my mind starts filling with random thoughts about bizarre things, like the sort of things that ought to stay in dreams, or the sorts of things a child might imagine like magically becoming famous or wondering some strange philosophical thing that ends up not making any real sense, or being important to think about in the moment. At some point I tried to take a nap; but instead of getting rest, it felt like my head ached more, like I was going deeper into an uncomfortable sleep. I've basically been fighting to focus and try to at least do something. I got all my missing homework done, so that's good.

When I sat down to draw this, I was initially thinking, "I wanna draw a fanart. Nah, I'd rather draw a feelings art, b/c I think that would be more suitable atm." Then I started drawing the skribble on the left, and my mind felt dull as if it was filled with some gelatinous blob that made it hard to push against the momentum of "just do whatever blah blah blah" and actually think through drawing some sort of figure.

But since this is a feelings drawing, I went with it! I added the swirly stuff behind it, which I managed to smear at least with some precision and care. And then I added the little scrweoglbilhy on the right side. For some reason it was hard to write my signature and the title (prob'ly b/c my hand was falling off the edge of the drawing tablet).

Bu'yeah, that's the process! Today felt like a very boring and eh day, but I'm thinking that this is weird haziness is just a state of mind that'll come and pass. I'm not sure about my thought process atm, but I know that sitting complacently isn't necessarily gonna help, which is why I'm doing things like drawing to wake up my mind. Exercise is something I should do next—good thing the weather's warm! ☀️☀️☀️